It’s been an incredibly long time since I was last on here.
Just how long has it been?
Just how long has it been? Probably just over a year. Life has been busy. Raising 2 children or monsters as they are affectionately known and being a wife/daughter/ friend whilst trying to work a 32 hour week….. I sometimes don’t even know my own name.
What’s been happening…. well since the last time, Master C has turned 2 and Miss E has turned 10. I have gone from part time morning work only to working pretty much full time but in a part time fashion. The hours in around my hubby. Trying to juggle the children and what they need AND still work the hours that my job requires of me.
Some days I only get home at 7 – 7:30pm and Nick has held down the fort. Dinner is sorted. He’s entertained the kids and managed to somehow complete the work he needs to as well. Living in a country with no family support has been extremely challenging. When Miss E was small, having my mum just down the road and willing and able to look after her for 2 days per a week saved us. I was able to go to work without a second thought. Child care was “affordable” and I say that in inverted comma’s because it was expensive still. It was only “affordable” because we only needed 2 days. Had we needed 4 days or 5 days, I think it would have been cheaper for me to stay at home!
Living in Australia means we are pretty isolated. I have thought on several occasions since Master C was born that moving back to the UK would be so much easier. In my dark moments I don’t think about all the other stuff that wouldn’t be easier, I can’t seem to rationalise those points. When my good head is screwed onto my shoulders I know that my kids will have a far better upbringing here in Australia. Many more opportunity’s to be outdoors and live a healthier lifestyle. We still have the dreaded “TECHNOLOGY” which I hate. Trying to have a conversation with Miss E is a process of “hang on mum, let me just finish this” or “hang on mum, let me finish watching this”….. I try to find a happy balance between the presence of technology and then good old fashioned reading or colouring in.
The reality is I think I’m too selfish!
The reality is I think I’m too selfish! I like the fact that Miss E is occupied by something so deeply that I have some down time to myself. Reading a book turns into read with me or to me and ultimately into I’m bored. She’s a very social child. When we do something such as go out for a meal or to a park to play, I hardly see her except for her to introduce her “friends” to me or because she’s hungry.
I haven’t yet figured out how to limit the time on a device and make it stick. We have good intentions. Eventually after a few weeks we stop monitoring her and she gets to spend as much time as she like on her iPad. Statements such as “when I grow up I want to be a YouTuber” are frequently made. Inwardly I cringe every time! I’m not saying she can’t be a YouTuber when she’s older. There’s a lot more to see and do before then though!
Since my last post we pledged our allegiance to Australia and became fully fledged citizens of this beautiful country. That was a drama and a half. We booked a holiday to Bali in September for a 40th Birthday celebration. There was no way of changing that date. We started our citizenship application the preceding October, gathering all the evidence you are required to submit. Our application went in sometime early Feb expecting that to be plenty of time.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I plan, plan and plan and read, read and read. Making sure that I know everything there is to know about something so that there are no surprises or upsets along the way. I knew roughly how long an application took by other peoples past experiences, I knew how long a ceremony would take. I even knew that passports took 3 weeks to issue and arrive in my post box. None of my preparation helped!
First our ceremony wasn’t going to occur until after we’d been to Bali. Umm…problem! Then we weren’t going to be eligible to request an early ceremony. We also had no valid travel documents. Bali was looking very unlikely and with flights booked, a very expensive NON holiday! In the end I had to beg, plead, stress, complain, cry a little, rip out some hair, go grey, drink copious amounts of wine and then some. We eventually got everything sorted and got our passports just in time. Phew! Bali was great. I’m not sure it’s what I expected it would be, but that’s a story for another day.
The end of the year is hurtling towards us at an alarming speed. I’m not sure I’m ready for that. The nature of Time though does not afford me any choice. I’m simply going to have to throw everything up in the air and see how it all lands!
I know I want next year to be different. All these thoughts and ideas are buzzing round in my head. I just can’t seem to tie anything down at the moment. So we continue on. Maybe tomorrow will be the day I have clarity?